It’s been a good long time since I wrote my last blog post. I think about writing constantly. I have ideas for what I want to say, and just like that I’m onto the next idea, or the next task, activity… you name it. In the past I wrote with wild abandon. I loved creating new posts, iterating my stories, my lessons, suggesting ways to improve. I don’t regret any of my prior creations. I love the fact that I have ideas and that I can articulate those.
A few weeks back, I found of my high school English teacher passed away. I’ll admit English wasn’t one of my strong subject areas. I struggled with how to write essays, to form points, to prove out those points and write a compelling introduction, or a definitive conclusion. I’m sure that my high school English teacher would likely read my blog posts and still find fault with them. But that’s ok. Thankfully I don’t need to be graded, or need to prove that I can follow a structured writing approach.
You might be wondering about the title of this blog… ‘slowly learning that life is ok’. You may have even googled it. If you have, you already know where it came from. For all those others, it’s a lyric in a song. The song originally written in the 80s. 1983 to be exact. It’s from the iconic song called Take on me, by a virtually unknown band out of Norway called A-ha. I immediately loved this song in the 80s and especially the accompanying ground-breaking video, that was part live action and part pencil sketch. If you grew up in the 80s you are all too familiar with the video and song.
A couple of years back the song came back into my life, but recorded as an MTV Unplugged series. Gone are the synth and fast tempo pop sounds, now replaced with simple instruments and backed by a solemn and sincere voice. If you haven’t heard the remake/unplugged version, I encourage a listen a-ha – Take On Me (Live From MTV Unplugged)
Part of the reason for my hiatus from blog post is that my work life over the past few years has shifted. Gone are the days where I could work at my own, freedom with the hours I put in and could more or less dictate my schedule. Now, replaced with leadership responsibilities and working in teams, and working tremendous hours. I am not complaining about my work in the least… in fact, I have always had a passion for my work and I approach it with vigor. I say that I have had a shift, in that I used to be a sponge, I would be constantly schooled/learning and picking up stories and experiences from all those around me that I worked with and interacted with… although that still happens – just not as frequently. I am now finding that I’m the teacher more often, and not so much the student. Some would say it’s a maturing of my career and me. Sure. ok, maybe. But I do miss the times that I would be awestruck with a great story, like Go More, See More.
I’m not sure if this the case with others, but I find that separating me from my work is sometimes very difficult. I use my everyday work experiences to look upon the world, applying my work logic to the things I see around me. Using my work experiences to approach how I conduct and react in my personal life. My work has definite crafted the person I have become. Be that in a good way or a bad way.
I am eternally grateful for all of the experiences my work has brought me. I am equally grateful for all of my family and friends that I continue to be proud of.
In Conclusion Mr. Angel (my high school English teacher). I’m going to quote the verse from the song as my conclusion to this blog post. I know that it doesn’t fit the form of a formal essay, but it’s a direct reflection of me, and I’m going with it.
So needless to say
I’m odds and ends
But that’s me
I’m stumbling away
Slowly learning that life is okay…